Wednesday, 28 November 2007

God's willpower

my Lord, please tell me that this is the right choice. This is your will, not mine. It must be the most accurate one.
The tears mystify me, that's why i couldn't see the blessing?? Please clear my eyes, cleanse my mind. Fill me up with your wisdom, so that i can see and think wisely.

LUKE 20:29-35

Now there were seven brothers. And the first took a wife, and died without children.

And the second took her as wife, and he died childless.

Then the third took her, and in like manner the seven also; and they left no children, and died.

Last of all the woman died also.

Therefore, in the resurrection, whose wife does she become? For all seven had her as wife.

Jesus answered and said to them, "The sons of this age marry and are given marriage.
But those who are counted worthy to attain that age, and the resurrection from the dead, neither marry nor are given in marriage."

Monday, 26 November 2007

soRRy....

I know how you feel, i Really do!
I'm sad when u deleted me fRom youR 'fRiendsteR' and 'facebook'.
I'm so envy that you've got hundRed of gfsss theRe! Even though you don't know them, I still feel veRy veRy sad, and that's killing me!
So, ... I know exactly how you feel!! And, I feel soooooo soRRy to you!!
I know soRRies no cure. But i Really don't know whatelse i can do!

too late..! ..?...?

When i see you, i feel veRy sad. That's why I don't go to 6th flooR now, and i seldom stay in the office now. I don't wanna see the sadness on youR face.
I don't know what to say to you. I don't know if i should say hi to you as usual. I'm sad when you tReat me like a stranger now. It makes me real SAD!!! I wish i can sit down with you, talk to you like usual. I wish to buy you tidbit, but i afraid you won't like it anymore.

It has been a habit to see whether your car is there when i'm in the carpark; Maybe you didn't realise that sometimes i park my car in front of yours (when the parking is available).
It has been a habit to see if your office's light is on everytime when i pass by. Which mean you're around. I wish i could bump into you at the corridor. Believe it or not, I even recognise your footstep.

I went to your office this afternoon, i wonder if you hear my voice? And this evening i went to 6th floor again, i wish i could see you there. But you weren't there.....

You asked me how do i know where your house is? Indeed I cruised around many many times, but i couldn't find it. It was too dark during night time; and your car wasn't there during day time.
Finally, i found it! You were away to China. I saw your car parking there. I was extremely happy!! That's how i know your house, .... and that night when i asked you to come out, i was waiting outside.

I don't work late. I stayed until 6pm because i was waiting for you. I went to the nearest place for 'happy hour' because i wish you would come join me after work.

I love you with long hair, either no hair. I don't really mind.
I don't mind if you only got 5 bucks in your pocket. I don't mind to tell the whole world that i love you!! I really don't mind! (Maybe you do, that's why i never mentioned your name here).

.... I'm sorry to say all this, when everything seems to be tooooo late now! To you, it is meaningless now......

you'Re always on my mind

I appreciate every single thing you did for me. The maggi mee is the bestEst food i never ever had before! I still keep the 5 bucks you gave me.
I remember every single word you said, your expressions, your laughter,... everything!! Many many things come up to my mind.... You're so special to me.

I know i might be wrong, i shouldn't have judge you the way i think you are. But I really tried very hard to understand you. It is too late to say this now. I will keep you in my mind. This is all i can do...........

foR you to Read

You didn't read my blog; you misunderstand me; you don't know how i feel. You continue to scold me, put all the blames on me!
I never ever meant to hurt you. I didn't know it would hurt you. I wouldn't do it if i knew it. I feel worst when you're hurt.
I don't understand you because you never tell, never show. I am just too stupid, and i'm not being patient enough.
I don't deserve your love because you're too good. I never expect anything from you. I don't dare to move a step forward because i'm scared! I afraid i would fall into you deeper and deeper. And, I'm so worry that one day i would lost you.
Please forgive me for being so stupid, and i'm not able to make things different now.